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It's sad when people genuinely worry about me when i am not continuoously updating the ol LJ.
Life has been.... fair to partly cloudy.

I've been incredibly stressed lately. Living at home is sort of destroying my stability. I have also been sewing around the clock, and activity, while enjoyable, causes back pain and robs me of precious sleep. My health has been affected by not sleeping; I'm very warn down and getting continuous mnigranes.

On Friday, I finished my Ron costume [it looks abso-fucking-lutely amazing] and treked of to Borders with Laura, Alex, Dan, and Paula. Aside from the Dementor, I easily had the greatest, most realistic, and least lacky costume. When I locate pictures, I shall post them. I was honestly mistaken for a man. XD A group of girls, upon passing me, huddled together and said "Hey... that's not a woman. I don't see any boobs!" [I bound my breasts for a more realistic costume]. UGH, I had a wonderful time there. I was able to pick up my book at 1:30 AM, after which we all returned to my house. While they watched Pirates of the Caribbean, I huddled in the corner and read.

I had mixed feelings about the book. While it was an amazing and moving read, I did not expect many of the happenings. I cried a great deal. I also felt very guilty and sad upon mentions of Sirius [I agree with Marissa - he is teh greatest of teh characters]. I was truly impressed by Harry's increased maturity, as well as the rest of the book in general. I have to much else to say, but nothing is very specific. Expect a further analysis upon my re-reading.

Inhale, exhale.

Ha, reading the book certainly didn't boost my moral. [gPurchasing it, however, really did].


As for work.... I fart in their general direction. I'm sick of scheduling problems, and I'm sick of always working with ever-patronizing Ryan. I'm just waiting for the day he removes the stick from his rear and stops treating me as an inferior.

I left work after 2 hours to-day; though scheduled for an 8-hour shift, I felt too ill to continue. Bite my dick, Tom - I honestly thought I was going to either pass out or vomit. I'm sure he would have been even mroe infuriated had I done so all over his precious food bar rather than in the privacy of my own home. None of the above ended up happening - I drank a cup of tea and took a long nap.

My parents insisted taking me out for a late birthday dinner. I put up a good fight, as I really did not want to go with them, but I caved in eventually. We went to YaYa, and I enjoyed my meal.... but not the company.




I really hate being patronized.

Yeah, I just want to go on vacation, go to Otakon, and go back to Rider.

Um, have a night night, I guess.
PS. I'm glad Naki's back. Really.

RANT RANT BITCH BITCH EMO EMO AGONIZE AGONIZE ANGST ANGST.
You are more than welcome to ignore my pathetic pleas.... I just don't openly express anger or depression. I really hate badgering my friends in person about my negative emotions.... instead, I bitch to something virtual. It's easier that way, and, more often than not, my only outlet, lest I keep it to myself.

I'mma go re-read Harry Potter now.
Then, I am going to angst over the loss of EVERYTHING that was on my desktop computron.

Expect a lot of Harry Potter fanart from me within the next month or so.